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A friend is like a love that could not be.

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AwtryBuildsRome
Im just saying that friends arent lovers.. I dont have a truth.. I lost a woman who meant the entire universe to me because of my fucking penis and I can tell you that truth is not the truth.. Trust me
Boaty McBoatfaceAuthor
That's exactly my point! Friends aren't lovers and shouldn't be, but somehow there are similarities between a love and friendship relationship: thrust, knowing each other, feeling comfortable, caring, being devastated when things don't work out. So as long the "love" isn't there, it's a good friend.
AwtryBuildsRome
Well I've been dealing with a loss for quite a while now and I'm glad you have such a wonderful look at things I just suppose it's a very sore spot for my life right now..
Boaty McBoatfaceAuthor
How old are you? Is all contact with your former friend broken?
AwtryBuildsRome
Yeah I haven't talked to her in about seven months.. She had to leave me because I tried to kill myself and she couldn't handle watching me kill myself.. Im 24.
AwtryBuildsRome
I've been getting my feet back under me mentally but honestly every inch I get better just makes me see how badly I messed up and how badly I need her back. Just makes me realize that she was truly the only person I ever loved.. She was and is so much to me that I cant even feel attracted to another woman anymore.. I literally have only kissed one person since and they kissed me not the other way around. I turned away so many women and they all actually went as far as retaliating against me because of the rejection.. A former sex addict I swore off sex until marriage just because of her.. I doubt she will ever talk to me again anyways.. Im sure she's happy with someone else by now she always was such a happy woman :)
Boaty McBoatfaceAuthor
Aw, that's really learning things the hard way... i am truly sorry for your loss and i hope everything will turn out ok for you, i think you are doing your best. I hope the big tests in life, usually heart vs brain conflicts, will turn ou allright! Take care!
AwtryBuildsRome
Yeah you too sorry if I got long winded lol
trashlord
Uh, sorry to come in this late, but I think the similarities come from friendship being a TYPE of love.
Boaty McBoatfaceAuthor
I think that's true. After 17years of marriage (still great!) I've noticed the difference between love and good friendship become somewhat smaller (the puppy love is gone) but also clearer (i do not fear the risk of a "spark" with my friend, it's not going to happen and this gives peace and comfort).
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