Can you imagine mental pain of little boy who has grown up watching his mom and dad fighting every night? Watching your mother cry and not being able to do anything isn't easy, darling. Innocence side of him was put on fire which burnt garden of his emotions. Sensitivity inside his heart was crushed over and over again by his own parents. There is well of sadness inside him which he never showed someone, unseen source of gloominess which he always kept hidden. He kept it somewhere inside, never letting someone to see it. There is a reason behind his recklessness which he never told anyone. He knows the secret that death will come at it's time, no matter what you go through breathes won't stop.