You say you're looking for enlightenment and you're looking for something new? How can you ask for something when you don't know what it is?
If you think you know what you're going out to look for something to achieve enlightenment, then you're looking for something you already know, which would actually be the past. The ultimate reality could never be perceived by you. So you end up in a bind where you would then have to look for something you know nothing of. You will then realize you can't seek nothing and maybe then when you simply be, you might come to understand and experience enlightenment without trying to because only when we are content to not know are you ready to know.
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